Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Wetting Day

Winter, Summer song & Spring
Autumn’s married daughters

Castles built of fragile sprig
Falling into waters

Fetch a pail, Boy! Bail us out!
The tides they swallow limbs!

Not this time, you hold too much!
You scoffed. I learnt to swim

Autumn, Winter, Old Man Death
Spring pedals line a grave

Gold and pearls adorn in vain
What money couldn’t save

Lining streets a solemn mass
Black coats and salty tears

Respects to dead deposits
Neglect to calm one’s fears

Monday, December 29, 2008

sidewalk angel

simple sidewalk angel
i've waited to touch your wings
with glowing eyes and peaceful heart
i've wondered where you've been
could i follow you to the end of time?
or, back from the edge of the earth?
if i took your hand tonight,
would i see the universe?

lovely sidewalk angel
my heart has ached in your absence
i could not find my way for long
without your watchful guidance
but with you close my eyes are wide
seeking that brilliant light
the sun, the stars, the moon that shine
that spear the burdening night

quiet sidewalk angel
i wish that i knew what is to come
fear can sometimes keep me from
the rewards i might otherwise have won
but knowing may neither give me will
nor the strength to follow those dreams
perhaps i'll continue day to day
learning about what life means

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Hey babe, I know you have not been feeling very sexy lately. Does that mean that you have not been feeling attractive to yourself or to me? I understand how one cannot feel attractive, but it is a strange trick to play on one's self. If you sat on your hand for a long enough time to make it dead, and then punched yourself in the nose with that hand, you might be tempted to blame that hand for it's intended harm. In the same way, I think you are tricking yourself to not feel attractive, because you do not know that you are responsible for your own self-perceptions. Secondly, you cannot control how I feel about you. You could try and make yourself more sexy through great external expenses, but you know that their is nothing more unattractive then falsity. Confidence is the great attractor.
I just want you to know that you are responsible for your own self-perceptions. To become dependent on another's opinion is to be a slave, like an addict who cannot live without externally induced pleasure. You could either remain a slave, or you can take charge. You can try and foster some kind of everlasting optimism, but what goes up must come down. Or, what I would recommend is to practicing having no opinions about self at all.
You might feel that because we have entered into a deep relationship, that my opinions about you are most important, but I would argue the contrary. When our relationship became a spiritual aknowledgement, it became, I would argue, a safe-haven not for the ego, but for the soul. Within the bounds of this relationship we have the freedom and the understanding to drop expectations, drop opinions, and practice living without self. That is what the rings on our fingers mean to me.
However, I know that it is not practical in this life to go on uncaring about the opinions of others, especially as we are not perfect. I am trying to take it up as practice though, and prefer to take up relationship contracts, whereby one tries to meet the expectations of others, in the same spirit of play that children adopt when they do make-beleive. Kids take on characters and play roles, but drop them just as suddenly in response to being called in for supper. That is, that our expectations should not be laws. In a storm, the most unbending trees are the ones that always break.

Love
your boy

Monday, December 22, 2008

Becoming Home

I see many unsatisfied individuals every day.  People, like myself, that seem uncomfortable in the life that they have chosen.  People that are disappointed with their job,  possibly unhappy with the world that they live in, or might be suffering from relationship woes.  Or maybe they are broke, or sick, or stressed from work, or unhappy with their health or physique.  Unable to help because they can't find help for themselves. 

Whatever it is the hinderance, I think I can relate to it.  I relate to it in a haze of admiration in a way, because in my world, any of those things would break my day.  If I were unhappy, I wouldn't be able to go to work.  I would be half of myself.  I dont know what motivates the unhappy person to get up and go every morning at seven. 

  I hope that my happiness is a reflection of goodness, rather than a lack of badness.  

I need to love everything around me before I can love the places I go to.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

for lovin' me by gordon lightfoot

that's what you get for lovin' me
that's what you get for lovin' me
ev'ry thing you had is gone
as you can see
that's what you get for lovin' me
i ain't the kind to hang around
with any new love that i found
cause movin' is my stock and trade
i'm movin' on
i won't think of you when i'm gone

so don't you shed a tear for me
b'cause i ain't the love you thought i'd be
i got a hundred more like you
so don't be blue
i'll have a thousand 'fore i'm through

now there you go you're cryin' again
now there you go you're cryin' again
but then some day when your poor heart
is on the mend
well i just might pass this way again

that's what you get for lovin' me
that's what you get for lovin' me
ev'ry thing you had is gone
as you can see
that's what you get for lovin' me
that's what you get for lovin' me

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Palling Around With Separatists

This is the "Firewall Letter" that Stephen Harper co-authored and delivered to the Premier of Alberta. The letter contains what obviously amounts to a call for Albertan separation from Confederation. The Alberta Agenda is all about keeping tar sands profits within Alberta so the money can't be used to help poorer provinces in the East.

When Harper tries to condemn the coalition for Bloc support, Canadians should read more into Harper's own past to see exactly where his loyalties lie--- Alberta first, Canada second....



Dear Premier Klein:

During and since the recent federal election, we have been among a large number of Albertans discussing the future of our province. We are not dismayed by the outcome of the election so much as by the strategy employed by the current federal government to secure its re-election. In our view, the Chretien government undertook a series of attacks not merely designed to defeat its partisan opponents, but to marginalize Alberta and Albertans within Canada’s political system. One well-documented incident was the attack against Alberta’s health care system. To your credit, you vehemently protested the unprecedented attack ads that the federal government launched against Alberta’s policies – policies the Prime Minister had previously found no fault with.

However, while your protest was necessary and appreciated by Albertans, we believe that it is not enough to respond only with protests. If the government in Ottawa concludes that Alberta is a soft target, we will be subjected to much worse than dishonest television ads. The Prime Minister has already signaled as much by announcing his so called “tough love” campaign for the West. We believe the time has come for Albertans to take greater charge of our own future. This means resuming control of the powers that we possess under the constitution of Canada but that we have allowed the federal government to exercise. Intelligent use of these powers will help Alberta build a prosperous future in spite of a misguided and increasingly hostile government in Ottawa.

Under the heading of the “Alberta Agenda,” we propose that our province move forward on the following fronts:

• Withdraw from the Canada Pension Plan to create an Alberta Pension Plan offering the same benefits at lower cost while giving Alberta control over the investment fund. Pensions are a provincial responsibility under section 94A of the Constitution Act. 1867; and the legislation setting up the Canada Pension Plan permits a province to run its own plan, as Quebec has done from the beginning. If Quebec can do it, why not Alberta?

• Collect our own revenue from personal income tax, as we already do for corporate income tax. Now that your government has made the historic innovation of the single-rate personal income tax, there is no reason to have Ottawa collect our revenue. Any incremental cost of collecting our own personal income tax would be far outweighed by the policy flexibility that Alberta would gain, as Quebec’s experience has shown.

• Start preparing now to let the contract with the RCMP run out in 2012 and create an Alberta Provincial Police Force. Alberta is a major province. Like the other major provinces of Ontario and Quebec, we should have our own provincial police force. We have no doubt that Alberta can run a more efficient and effective police force than Ottawa can – one that will not be misused as a laboratory for experiments in social engineering.

• Resume provincial responsibility for health-care policy. If Ottawa objects to provincial policy, fight in the courts. If we lose, we can afford the financial penalties that Ottawa may try to impose under the Canada Health Act. Albertans deserve better than the long waiting periods and technological backwardness that are rapidly coming to characterize Canadian medicine. Alberta should also argue that each province should raise its own revenue for health care – i.e., replace Canada Health and Social Transfer cash with tax points as Quebec has argued for many years. Poorer provinces would continue to rely on Equalization to ensure they have adequate revenues.

• Use section 88 of the Supreme Court’s decision in the Quebec Secession Reference to force Senate reform back onto the national agenda. Our reading of that decision is that the federal government and other provinces must seriously consider a proposal for constitutional reform endorsed by “a clear majority on a clear question” in a provincial referendum. You acted decisively once before to hold a senatorial election. Now is the time to drive the issue further.

All of these steps can be taken using the constitutional powers that Alberta now possesses. In addition, we believe it is imperative for you to take all possible political and legal measures to reduce the financial drain on Alberta caused by Canada’s tax-and-transfer system. The most recent Alberta Treasury estimates are that Albertans transfer $2,600 per capita annually to other Canadians, for a total outflow from our province approaching $8 billion a year. The same federal politicians who accuse us of not sharing their “Canadian values” have no compunction about appropriating our Canadian dollars to buy votes elsewhere in the country.

Mr. Premier, we acknowledge the constructive reforms that your government made in the 1990s – balancing the budget, paying down the provincial debt, privatizing government services, getting Albertans off welfare and into jobs, introducing a single-rate tax, pulling government out of the business of subsidizing business, and many other beneficial changes. But no government can rest on its laurels. An economic slowdown, and perhaps even recession, threatens North America, the government in Ottawa will be tempted to take advantage of Alberta’s prosperity, to redistribute income from Alberta to residents of other provinces in order to keep itself in power. It is imperative to take the initiative, to build firewalls around Alberta, to limit the extent to which an aggressive and hostile federal government can encroach upon legitimate provincial jurisdiction.

Once Alberta’s position is secured, only our imagination will limit the prospects for extending the reform agenda that your government undertook eight years ago. To cite only a few examples, lower taxes will unleash the energies of the private sector, easing conditions for Charter Schools will help individual freedom and improve public education, and greater use of the referendum and initiative will bring Albertans into closer touch with their own government.

The precondition for the success of this Alberta Agenda is the exercise of all our legitimate provincial jurisdictions under the constitution of Canada. Starting to act now will secure the future for all Albertans.

Sincerely yours,
Stephen HARPER, President, National Citizens’ Coalition;
Tom FLANAGAN, professor of political science and former Director of Research, Reform Party of Canada;
Ted MORTON, professor of political science and Alberta Senator-elect;
Rainer KNOPFF, professor of political science;
Andrew CROOKS, chairman, Canadian Taxpayers Federation;
Ken BOESSENKOOL, former policy adviser to Stockwell Day, Treasurer of Alberta.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

1. superficial charm and good intelligence
2. Absence of delusions
3. Absence of nervousness
4. Unreliability
5. Untruthfulness and insincerity
6. Lack of remorse or shame
7. Inadequately motivated antisocial behaviour
8. Poor judgement and failure to learn by experience
9. Pathologic egocentricity and incapacity for love
10. General poverty in major affective reactions
11. Specific loss of insight
12. Unresponsiveness in general interpersonal relations
13. Fantastic and uninviting behaviour
14. Suicide rarely carried out.
15. Sex life impersonal, trivial, and poorly integrated
16. Failure to follow any life plan.
17. Grandiose sense of self-worth
18. Proneness to boredom/need for stimulation
19. Conning/manipulativeness

a challenge to you

for someone who has just lost someone, and who fears losing several more in the coming weeks due to terminal illness, i challenge anyone who reads this to tell everyone in their life "i love you".

never underestimate how powerful it can be to verbalize your feelings. they probably know that you love them, but they will appreciate hearing it said out loud.

to those who feel that they do not have anyone in their lives, i love you.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

This Just In:

This afternoon, Stephen Harper and our Governor-General Michelle Jean have ignored the will of the majority of Parliament, thereby overriding the Canadian democratic process to allow the Conservatives seven more weeks of propaganda as an attempt to try and stave off the inevitable.

Prorogation has always been a dirty word. It stands as a political maneuver of last resort, or a dirty trick reserved for tyrannical kings. Why would Jean allow this to happen? Is she simply trying to leave a lasting legacy in a role that traditionally stays utterly benign? Or did she just do the opposite of what everyone thought she was going to do for the sake of irony? Either way, Stephen Harper has asked Parliament to shut down without dissolving simply so he can spend your money for seven more weeks on campaign-like advertisements attacking Dion, Duceppe and Layton.

The Conservatives will now go on the offensive, with a media blitz aimed at labeling the coalition government undemocratic or unconstitutional. They will try to say that Canadian voters gave the Conservatives a new mandate after the election. This is simply misleading. Harper would have us believe that our system of governance is more like the American style. But here in Canada we don't vote a party into power, we vote for a single MP. It is then up to that sitting MP to decide who will become Prime Minister. Harper's Cons received the most seats of any party, this is true, but he did not receive the majority of house seats needed to rule as he wishes. The majority of the house has now spoken, Stephen Harper no longer has the confidence of the majority of sitting MP's. Prorogation is simply avoiding the inevitable.

Michelle Jean should have acted her proper neutral role and allowed Harper to face the vote as he should have. I thought Christmas was going to come early. Now it's going to be late.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Ideas Into Action

Click here to read an article calling for a left-wing coalition, written and submitted even before the last Canadian election.

The Anti-Coalition Coalition's Anti-Petition Petition

Stephen Harper knows a thing or two about coalitions, after all, he was once the President and Vice-President of the National Citizens Coalition.

All this crazy talk of left-wing coalition building is taking the spotlight away from the more troubling issue. We currently have a Prime Minister who, in the midst of an economic downturn, would rather craft policies based more on partisan warfare than financial prudence. Harper and his administration have been bullying parliament for too long now, passing legislation designed to corner the opposition into submitting rather than calling another very early and unwanted election.
Harper's attempts to plow salt into the fields of the Liberal Party by cutting off their funding has actually created this new left-wing coalition as a reactionary tactic. I won't argue, it seems strange. A separatist, a socialist and a centrist running the country together. Odd bedfellows indeed. But nobody knows what type of results this style of governance will produce. And after deep contemplation, I just can't think of one problem arising from any type of coalition building. That's what democratic governments do in order to function properly.
Don't let any of the media's scare tactics dissuade you from this wavelength of positivity. The Bloc have promised stability for at least 18 months, the NDP and the Liberals have both made compromises in order to bring about positive change to Canada. We may not fully know where this new style of leadership will take us, but what results have the Conservatives produced in their attempts to create an Emperor in a Parliamentary democracy? Our respectable standing in the world has been slowly diminished, as have our precious natural resources been sold off at an accelerated pace southwards to the United States. We need a new vision to deal with new global problems. Not the same old corporate bullshit that produces such ghastly economic, environmental and social imbalances. Harper has to go...
As I conclude, I'd just like to recall for a moment one Mr. Stephen Harper recently standing up in Parliament to announce to the speaker that in forming a coalition, the opposition are about to play one of the biggest political games in history. He may be right, their game is pretty big. But Harper failed to mention that the trophy for the biggest political game ever played still rests on his own mantle at 24 Sussex. Harper's condemnation of political coalition building must be reserved specifically for the left. For if one is to stare long enough at his Conservative Party of Canada, one may just barely make out the old crookedly stitched seams where the Reform Party became the Canadian Alliance, and together with the PC's they formed the new right-wing Frankenstein currently stalking Parliament. Guess who masterminded this great merger of Conservative ideologies?